My m0meNtaRy HaVeN

My m0meNtaRy HaVeN http://syanah.multiply.com/ Like Peter Pan we have this aspect within us that remains a child.... our Neverlands... For life is a game we all must play... You happen to step on my playground where I dump all my toys and joys, fears and tears. So take a peek and play with me if you wish. Everyone is welcome as I enjoy playing with friends and acquaintances. But if for some reasons you aren't pleased and would decide to leave, I also do not mind, as I am used to playing alone... That is what this SyaNah is anyway, this country girl who still wants to keep playing... and keep playing... and keep playing... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 06:17:49 -0000 Wed, 18 Jul 2007 12:59:17 -0000 My m0meNtaRy HaVeN http://images.syanah.multiply.com/logo http://syanah.multiply.com 100 100 aNotheR featheR in the caP cheers, Pinoys! another physicist (UP Diliman) made it to the doctoral degree. we are so proud of them making a big name in this foreign country. with just those directly around me, 3 have nailed it - VA, Mel and now Onats, still another 3 in the grinding process. we can't wait for them to make it too, way to go, http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/66/aNotheR_featheR_in_the_caP Wed, 18 Jul 2007 12:59:17 -0000 RaiNboWs at niGht.... here i go again chasing rainbows after midnight. why do colors seem to flicker when the world around me's in slumber? it feels so helpless! <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.netlog.com/v1.38//s/i/smil/unsure.gif"> chores are done, i should have curled up in bed. but my mind is beset by a thought though i tried to free it it's still fraught... with thoughts of you! <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.netlog.com/v1.38//s/i/smil/wub.gif"> fond thoughts, that linger on and on... they brought forth smile on my lips and send shivers from spine till my finger tips... they make me feel afloat! <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.netlog.com/v1.38//s/i/smil/whistling.gif"> i can't sleep though i wrestle and juggle. but one thing is just so bizarre - because it's all phantasm - that's what you are! guess i just had too much beer! <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.netlog.com/v1.38//s/i/smil/laugh.gif"> ~ eloise ~   http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/51/RaiNboWs_at_niGht.... Mon, 9 Jul 2007 02:42:28 -0000 she... she may be the face i can't forget the trace of pleasure or regret.... 2007 pictures of my narcistic twin http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/63/she... Sat, 7 Jul 2007 13:34:10 -0000 NL Les (ik zou iedereen van mijn klas bedanken voor jullie hulp. onze project is succesvol geworden door jullie. tot na de zomervakantie! ) This is one of the things that made this mommy's schedule full! I am super glad it's over, but on the other hand I sort of miss it. Day in and day out I thought of what to add into it - first the books, then the contents, then what to do with the bags: conceptualizing the design and implementing the plans. Of course our beloved language teacher, Laura, and my very cooperative classmates are there but the task was mainly on me. Except for Arni, no one else knew what I was trained to do, what I have been through in the classrooms through many years, and what I can do. It was a wonderful DEJA VU for me. The artwork - I realized how I missed painting, sewing, planning for steps so that the kids would have fun learning. I am personally looking forward to contribute more to the school, particularly in this aspect. these are the links, by the way: <a href=http://www.literacytrust.org.uk/socialinclusion/earlyyears/storysackspractice.html>http://... http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/60/NL_Les Wed, 27 Jun 2007 15:59:42 -0000 Scheveningen temporary set-up ...will polish soon... http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/58/Scheveningen Tue, 29 May 2007 12:58:46 -0000 gaStroNoMic iNduLgenCe... last weekend was disastrous for the weight watchers! well, not for me, hihi! see below why! (for a change, pls view flickr in my http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/54/gaStroNoMic_iNduLgenCe... Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:32:50 -0000 of NothiNgneSS & buSyneSS... no one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers ;) i've to buy new ones for all these nothingness and busyness. http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/53/of_NothiNgneSS_buSyneSS... Sat, 24 Mar 2007 03:07:52 -0000 oN ReaSoN aNd PaSSioN   my soul is oftentimes a BATTLEFIELD, upon which my REASON and my JUDGMENT wage war against PASSION and APPETITE. my reason and my passion are the rudder and the sails of my sea-faring soul. if either my rudder or my sails be broken, i can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. so I LET MY SOUL exalt my reason to the height of passion - that it may sing <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.facebox.com//s/i/smil/wink.gif"> for how could i let passion alone rule my reason? they are my two INSEPARABLE guests. i could not honour one above the other, nor consider the first less than the latter. although in my SANITY i could be oblivious that my heart has its wants and needs; in my FOLLY, on the otherhand, i could forget that an unattended passion is a fire of destruction. but how could i stay steadfast and unperturbed? who is wise enough and NOT burn inside? why strain for ABSOLUTE balance when sages and scholars fail? i too, should REST in reason and MOVE in passion. - as inspired by "On Reason and Passion" ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/47/oN_ReaSoN_aNd_PaSSioN Fri, 9 Mar 2007 13:22:10 -0000 hoW c0uLd i keeP my muSic pLayiNg? How do you keep the music playing? How do you make it last? How do you keep the song from fading too fast? How do you lose yourself to someone? And never lose your ways How do you not run out of new things to say? And since we're always changing How can it be the same? And tell me how year after year You're sure your heart will fall apart Each time you hear his name I know the way I feel for you It's now or never The more I love the more that i'm afraid That in your eyes I may not see forever.. Forever... If we can be the best of lovers Yet be the best of friends If we can try with everyday to make it better as it grows With any luck, then I suppose The music never http://syanah.multiply.com/music/item/41/hoW_c0uLd_i_keeP_my_muSic_pLayiNg Mon, 5 Mar 2007 01:42:53 -0000 for Big Man :) In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all BE THANKFUL for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer well i AM ever thankful, right big man? :) - - - - - - - The nights the sky was filled with clouds My worried mind was filled with fear I couldn't count all the lonely hours Spent with memories and tears I never thought I would see the day When I could throw all my sorrow away But then you came and you showed me the way You have made all those times disappear You changed my life in a moment And I'll never be the same again You changed my life in a moment And it's hard for me to understand With the touch of your hand in a moment in time All my sorrow is gone I never thought that I could change Could change so much in so many ways I'm still surprised when I look in my mirror To see that I still look the same http://syanah.multiply.com/music/item/27/for_Big_Man_ Mon, 5 Mar 2007 01:20:59 -0000 If Only for One Night.... why only one night??? Let me hold you tight If only for one night Let me keep you near To ease away your fear It would be so nice If only for one night I won't tell a soul No one has to know If you want to be totally discreet I'll be at your side If only for one night Your eyes say things i never hear from you And my knees are shakin too But i'm willin to go thru I must be crazy Standin in this place But i'm feeling no disgrace For asking...... Let me hold you tight If only for one night Let me keep you near To ease away your fear It would be so nice If only for one night I tell you what i need is One night, one night What i need is One night, one night Of your love, of you love, of your lovin ooh I'm asking... Let me take you home To keep you safe and warm Till the early dawn Warms up to the sun It would be so nice if only for one night http://syanah.multiply.com/music/item/25/If_Only_for_One_Night...._why_only_one_night_ Mon, 5 Mar 2007 01:14:53 -0000 wheN soFt vOiceS die.... My heart's been anguished, It's torn amongst - choices, crossroads, constraints... Full of uncertainties. It's like walking on an ice bridge, or on broken glass. Hazy may the future be, But I must keep going. 'Tis imperative, no option to stay put, or worse, to turn back. But what time is it? which time, rather??? How could I tell it's time to gather stones, or to scatter them away? to embrace or to refrain? to mend or let the tear stay as it is? I am afraid those soft voices have died. How I nurtured them for years. They were all mine to give. And the violets, the roses... They long have died. It's not even your soft voice that I don't want to die because I doubt if they are ever there. It's the soft voices within me... they are screaming to be rescued. Are you that deaf or aren't you just able to feel them? Or maybe you'd feel them, their absence... when they are... but dead? ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ "music, when soft voices die, vibrates in the memory - odours, when sweet violets sicken, live within the sens... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/46/wheN_soFt_vOiceS_die.... Mon, 5 Mar 2007 01:03:46 -0000 haZy SeQueL have you ever heard a broken record playing? or have you ever experienced flipping the pages only to find out that the next is the same with the previous one? where could one ever find a merry-go-round that changed its course? never! .... the record keeps playing, the pages flipping... and the rides round and round and round... the icy touch of madame winter seemed to depart early.... the hyacinths are now attempting to bud, birds chirping - welcoming spring's comfortable embrace, and soon that oh-so-longed-for warmth that only summer could bring, but would soon fade to the cruel shadows of fall ... old memories go, new ones have to be made, but still i've no idea what the future holds. i wanted to create another story, so i wanted to give this present one a great ending. but the harder i strain to find the right words, the more i find myself going in circles.... so i decided to let the record play by itself, place down my pen, fold my arms, and just let the ride go round and round..... a... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/45/haZy_SeQueL Thu, 22 Feb 2007 02:02:20 -0000 of LOVE & TIME <IMG class=alignleft src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/169/389721771_275a5b8d7e_m.jpg" border=0> TIME is too SLOW for those who WAIT, too SWIFT for those who FEAR, too LONG for those who GRIEVE, too SHORT for those who REJOICE, but for those who LOVE, time is ETERNITY  ~ Henry Van Dyke   to you my friends: i wish that  you see TIME as ETERNITY ... not only today, but always . . . HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! photo source: <A href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/eloisenl/">my flickr</A> http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/44/of_LOVE_TIME Wed, 14 Feb 2007 17:10:55 -0000 tomorrow... quo vadis? thanks Maurice for singing/playing/sending me your own mp3 :) i'm looking forward to hear more songs from you... you know you could put me to sleep by just listening, really .... JE WEET DAT AL, DM! stubborn man! heeeheee! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I find myself in a strange situation And I dont know how What seemed to be an infatuation Is so different now I cant get by if were not together Ooh cant you see Girl, I want you now and forever Close to me Im longing for the time Im longing for the day Hoping that you will promise to be mine And never go away I dont want to live without you I dont want to live without you I could never live without you Live without your love I ask myself but theres no explanation For the way I feel I know Ive reached the right destination And I know its real Im longing for the time Im longing for the day When Ill be giving you this heart of mine Believe me when I say I dont want to live without y... http://syanah.multiply.com/music/item/23/tomorrow..._quo_vadis Thu, 1 Feb 2007 11:44:17 -0000 aS iNspiRed.... How do you speak your love, oh beloved? I beseech you as I can not fathom the depth of your being. Is it love when the world seems to stand still as I LOOK deeper into your eyes? Or is it the WORDS that you utter softly into my ears and are promptly drifted into my heart? Is it the RICHES of your entity that overwhelm my very own soul? Or is it the gladness of your TOUCH that seeps into each and every inch of my flesh? Or is it the gentleness of your ACTIONS that spins me into waves of endless rhapsody?? Tell me, oh beloved, and I would fall faint into your arms, in my lips the smile of sweet surrender. <IMG class=smiley alt=Smiley src="http://static.facebox.com//s/i/smil/inlove.gif" _extended="true"> ~Eloise~ 25 jan '07 inspired by Gary Chapman's Five Languages of Love and Kahlil Gibran's On Love ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ (excerpts from Kahlil Gibran's ON LOVE) But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure, Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor.... INTO THE SEASONLESS WORLD WHERE YOU SHALL LAUGH, BUT NOT ALL... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/43/aS_iNspiRed.... Thu, 25 Jan 2007 05:52:30 -0000 ChuMs, etc.... Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give VALUE to survival. ~C.S. Lewis Most people here have been there to lift up my spirit - some by wanting to be there to give me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on, some by wanting ME to be there to give them a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Both ways I feel loved and believed in ... Now I fully understand that friends are indeed precious treasures. Those who I value as silver I love them in the same way with those I value as gold. - To some who are not here, I have another album elsewhere kept for them... in my heart :) http://syanah.multiply.com/photos/album/49/ChuMs_etc.... Fri, 12 Jan 2007 02:17:41 -0000 LoVe'S PhiLoSopHy (PB Shelley) The fountains mingle with the river And the rivers with the ocean, The winds of Heaven mix for ever With a sweet emotion; Nothing in the world is single, All things by a law divine In one spirit meet and mingle - Why not I with thine? See the mountains kiss high Heaven And the waves clasp one another; No sister-flower would be forgiven If it disdained its brother; And the sunlight clasps the earth, And the moonbeams kiss the sea - What are all these kissings worth If thou kiss not me?       - Percy Bysshe Shelley ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ oh love's philosophy, you have tickled the essence out of me.  if i only have shelley's capability, hear ye, hear ye, please let it be. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ if i could only control the fates... if i could only pull one place and set it next to the other... if i could only hasten the time... or prolong it... or turn back its hands... then that would be easier. if all these "if onlys" would be realities... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/42/LoVeS_PhiLoSopHy_PB_Shelley Sun, 7 Jan 2007 19:34:45 -0000 Mr. H. Cendana's birthday Jong, I could say is my male counterpart in www.sherynregis.net. We can have a debate through the net. Nobody would give in since we both could find the right words to fight verbally. We did have our friendship downside. But let bygones be bygones. Jong will remain a friend... and whoah! he insists that I would be the godmother of her second child.... Hmmmn, Jong, pasubo ka! But it's okay. Yeah, you can have HZ keyholder! Happy birthday... "pare"? waaah, no waay!!! If it's Lolo, trip ko pa! Hope the angels and gods in IBP will grant you your wishes, attorney-to-be http://syanah.multiply.com/calendar/item/10017/Mr._H._Cendanas_birthday Sun, 7 Jan 2007 05:55:32 -0000 Nelmer Lao's birthday Ming is Ann's uncle. He was also an acquaintance since our childhood years. His mom and my dad were colleagues but we never became friends until we both finished college that out of the blue we started dating, and boy, that was quick... 4months later I was sure he isn't for me. But that was one good way. We became friends from that time on. Thing there is - he is still single till now. Ahh, not my business anymore! hahaha. I will just greet him through Ann http://syanah.multiply.com/calendar/item/10016/Nelmer_Laos_birthday Sun, 7 Jan 2007 05:48:30 -0000 Juhanah Marie Lao's bday Ann is my childhood friend. We parted when we were 11 'coz I moved to my mom's hometown, but we always found time to be together - she would travel up north to be with me and I would stay down southern Cebu with my paternal grannies just to be with Ann. Funny, we even had one common beau. Wow, that almost broke our friendship. But we did not give up on that. We remain friends from pre-school to high-school to college till now. I can't wait to call her on her birthday! Wish she can read this! I missed you http://syanah.multiply.com/calendar/item/10015/Juhanah_Marie_Laos_bday Sun, 7 Jan 2007 05:43:50 -0000 just my thoughts today... Jaag niet achter het verleden aan. Verlang niet naar de toekomst. Het verleden is niet meer. De toekomst is nog niet begonnen. ~ Seek not the past; Long not for the future. The past is gone; The future just started.... hmn, i still want to keep writing... blog is full, review is full, music page is full, soon i will convert my photo album pages to writing pages, http://syanah.multiply.com/calendar/item/10014/just_my_thoughts_today... Sun, 7 Jan 2007 05:36:41 -0000 of piCkpoCkets and hoLd-uPPeRs... <IMG class=alignleft src="http://images.syanah.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/RaBNYwoKCp0AAAfkZQg1/pickpocket-intro.jpg?et=qzIWfyrR3K%2C1G0jft84ZdQ" border=0> November last year was disastrous for my friend. She went shopping in Kalverstraat - the busiest shopping street in the center of Amsterdam. With her hands busy carrying her new stuffs, she was just shocked to realize that she could no longer find her bag. She didn't tell me how much money was there but she did mention that she just got paid - and in cash. I can understand why she lamented for 3 days. A good friend of mine told me yesterday that her boyfriend's wallet was stolen while they had the New Year's night out at the Amsterdam Royal Palace's grounds. Happy New Year's lesson friend P! *hihihi, sorry* You should have listened to what your girlfriend told you. We women can be smarter than you guys know, mwehehehe. That reminded me of one incident in january 2005 while I just got back from my trip to Groningen. I secured my leather back-pack between me and the wall of the tram on my way to work from Amsterdam Central Station, when, while brushing my hair, I noticed a hand ... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/40/of_piCkpoCkets_and_hoLd-uPPeRs... Sun, 7 Jan 2007 01:00:54 -0000 Love's Philosophy The fountains mingle with the river, And the rivers with the ocean; The winds of heaven mix forever With a sweet emotion; Nothing in the world is single; All things by a law divine In another's being mingle-- Why not I with thine? See, the mountains kiss high heaven, And the waves clasp one another; No sister flower could be forgiven If it disdained its brother; And the sunlight clasps the earth, And the moonbeams kiss the sea;-- What is all this sweet work worth, If thou kiss not me? I find this poem fluffy/sugary (that you could even sing one of the theme songs of the movie ANTZ -> the ants go marching one by one, hurrah, hurrah!) Fluffy yeah. But still I like Percy Bysshe Shelley's writings. There is much personifications here. That is typical Shelley. Personifications, similis and metaphors. I can relate. I sometimes use these figures of speech when I desperately want to be understood... when I want the reader to get what I really mean. Her... http://syanah.multiply.com/reviews/item/2 Sat, 6 Jan 2007 03:37:23 -0000 reminiscing the 80's for two months already i have been abstaining from my "childhood vanity". i say childhood vanity because, to my dad's dismay, i stopped playing the piano and the violin because i had an early passion for nice nails. same thing happened during my teen-age when i started to get interested in playing the guitar. again, i chose my nails over skill. silly! tell me. i know. but in 2006, after 6 months of plethoric nail art, i decided to let my nails recover since they have become thin and soft. now that they have recovered that means i could play the guitar again. (no violin here in NL, just a 3.5-octaved yamaha organ but the keyboard hasn't tickled my fancy) now, now... recalling the chords, re-trying to strum,(don't ask me to pluck, the strings or my nails would give way, haha) it has brought me so much memories: my dad, my cousins, tambay sa kanto, college beau, dormitory-mates. ahhh, those were the days. but this music lives on... ray conniff's version was way tooo oldies.... (ihrene dea... http://syanah.multiply.com/music/item/21/reminiscing_the_80s Thu, 4 Jan 2007 04:15:57 -0000 of Suns, StaRs aNd mooNs... <A href="/photos/hi-res/upload/RZw2OwoKCp0AAHyUHNw1"><IMG class=alignleft src="http://images.syanah.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/RZw2OwoKCp0AAHyUHNw1/aries1.JPG?et=yUf%2Cbv7uRiQAfp11NXEtnw" border=0></A> ~They who meet on an April night are forever lost in love, if there's moonlight all about and no moon above.  ~From a song ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I intended to write something else in this entry but some things did not fall as how I expected them to be. So I opted to publish one of the drafts stashed in my blog. This was mailed to me by Ethel, my friend Nieves's niece - both of them are Aries. I am not a believer of astrology, fate, superstition, or any religious stuffs, but I am a lover of the mind, beauty and life per se. So I enjoy what life brings. And some of the descriptions here somehow fit me. And the concept of the illustration is, by the way, irresistible. *wink* Aries (March 21 — April 20) Main Function: To get things going. The first sign of the zodiac is the pioneer, the risk taker, the one to get things started, and the one to try out what has never been tried before. Aries people are spontaneous, impulsive and self-motivated. They don'... http://syanah.multiply.com/journal/item/38/of_Suns_StaRs_aNd_mooNs... Wed, 3 Jan 2007 23:20:48 -0000